Beautiful
Broken Wing … Dedicated to Carrie Haley, Nikki Lane, Casey Lane and
Kali Marcum.
Yesterday I went to a funeral
with a friend of mine, Nikki Lane. It was her sister’s, Carrie Haley age 24. She
had felt that the darkness that is in our world was too much for her to bear
and had taken her own life. As I sat
there staring at the open casket, I noticed how her body seemed like a shell
that a Spirit had worn for a time and then had gone onto higher things. Then
the thought came to mind, or did it? Yes, every once in awhile despite what I have
witnessed time and time again and what I know that I believe in my heart, the carnal
side of my mind will pose this question to me. So, I asked God in that moment, please let me
feel something, let me see something to know that is really true. Please, one
more confirmation. I stared all around the room and waited to see something,
anything that would just send this idea of resurrection home for me one more time.
I am not ashamed to admit that while I am Christian, I have a human side to
contend with as well. As the service
continued on, I had pretty much forgotten all about what I had asked God to do.
Isn’t that how it always is? We ask God for something, He takes longer than a
couple of minutes so we figure the answer is no and go on about our business. Right before the service was over; something
shiny had caught my eye on the floor. I realized that it was a broken wing, of one of the butterflies
that my friend had shown me earlier in the visitation. Everyone was taking one
of them and putting them in the casket. The song “Broken Wing” by Martina
McBride started playing in my head, especially the part about, MAN YOU OUTTA
SEE HER FLYYYYYYYYY right at the end of that song. I noticed how everyone was walking
over it but not noticing it. I was nudged in the Spirit to pick it up. Just
then, Nikki said she needed to use the restroom and the wing was directly in
the path that we needed to walk in. I picked it up and continued on with her.
Once she was finished, I handed it to her and I told her that I really didn’t
know all of what it meant right now but that she needed to hold onto it as a
reminder, that Carrie was broken but is now whole and that she would be made whole
too. She said to me that it reminded her
of the song Broken Wing by Martina. I asked her if Carrie liked that song and
she said she was not sure.
I woke up today with that song
in my mind again and could not stop singing it. I felt pressed in Spirit to ask the other
sisters if they knew if Carrie liked that song. So, I sent them a message on
Facebook to which Kali responded right away, OMG yes I didn’t know they played
it, this is weird because I have been singing it in my head since they told me
the news. I informed her that they did not play it, and let her know what happened
to me which I have shared with you above. I watched the video and had goose
bumps everywhere when I saw the choir of people as her backup singers dressed
in white robes.
REV 6:11 KJV And white robes were given
unto every one of them; and it was said unto them, that they should rest yet
for a little season, until their fellowservants also and their brethren, that
should be killed as they were, should be fulfilled.
It dawned on me that although
she had told me that Carrie liked the song, she had not told me why. So, I
asked her if Carrie ever said anything about that specific song. She said yes,
that she liked it and that it reminded her of their Mom who had passed away
6-22-11. In scrolling through Haley’s Facebook page, something really stood out
to me in her posts. She missed her Mom and was still mourning over her loss
very deeply. How fitting it seemed to me that God would choose this song to
play in at least the hearts of 3 people. It was the same song that He chose to
comfort Carrie with. Later in the day today after this happened, I remembered
what I had asked God for in the service. Thanks God for always coming through.
Aside from one encounter with
Carrie in a gift shop when we were visiting Nikki a few years back. I did not
know her very well but I really enjoyed that time with her and I knew then that
she was a very sweet, kind and caring person. I wondered today why God had
chosen me to reveal this message to and pass it on to these beautiful women
when I barely knew her. I know now it is simply because He knew that I would
take the time to notice the subtle signs and number two, that I would pass the information
along and that I would also receive the blessing of confirmation that He had
for me in it. God speaks all of the time to us and mostly in a still small
voice. I promise if you slow down and choose to be more aware of what is going
on around you, He will come through loud and clear.
Please take the time to send up
a prayer of peace for this family.
An interesting blog post I came
across while looking up the meaning of broken wing
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